Sometimes this whole cancer thing seems so surreal.
Like I am on the outside looking in. I don't want to be going through all of this. I didn't ask for it. But, it is what it is and what can I do?
I feel like I have already fought my heart out. I have already been fighting so very hard. What do I do if the cancer comes back? Where do we go from here?
According to statics, the cancer will return in about 9 months.
That is all I get and then I will be going through all this again.
You have seriously got to be kidding me.
9 months isn't enough.
I want to do so many things. Especially with the kids.
I try to do fun activities with them at least once a week, but quite honestly, I don't always have the energy, and now that's it getting cold, I don't really want to take them out. I need to set up some sort of schedule where we do art projects every day or something like that. I just want them both to remember all the great things that I do with them.
Something that I hear a lot is, "They are so young, they won't remember this." Please, don't ever say that to me.
Why, you ask?
Because when you say that, I think, what if I don't make it. Then they won't remember me. (Insert tears here!)
My kids not remembering me is something that I can not handle. That is why I am working so hard to create memories. And take lots of pictures. I don't ever want them to forget me or everything that I have done for them or with them. I love them so much and I am pretty sure that if they weren't here I wouldn't be doing all this. To be perfectly honest, they are a fabulous reason to be alive. So, thank you my little monkeys. You rock!
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