Tuesday, August 25, 2009

My Thoughts

Lately I have had a lot of time to think.

Don't get me wrong, the kids and I have been busy little bees, but seriously, how much brain power does it take to play cars or babies?

I have been thinking a lot about what is important and what I want to do with my life.

Obviously, first and foremost is my children. I have probably been going over board with them. I have been feeling pretty good so I want to take them places, and do things with them, and buy them things. Believe me though, all this activity during the day is kicking my ass at night. But I don't care. My kids are happy so I am happy.

We are leaving in Sept to head back down to Houston. As much as I want to bring the kids, we have decided not to. I have a lot of scans scheduled and I will need Cody there with me. Plus, 10 hours in a car is a long ride for two little ones. Hopefully, one of the times that we go back down for a check up the kids can join us. Luckily, we will only be there for 3 days. If I can last a week without them, 3 days should be nothing.

I have also decided to start working towards my Master's Degree in Teaching. I started this last summer and then found out I had cancer so that was obviously put on hold. I am hoping to start back up with school in January.

Overall, I have realized that I am blessed. Yes, I have cancer. Yes, I will always worry about it returning. But, my kids are awesome and they are definitely a reason to fight my ass off. So cancer, if you are listening, I am always, always, always, going to kick your ass!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

New News

Today we met with the Dr and after seeing how upset I was (I started crying!) about having two extra rounds he decided to change some things up.

I am no longer doing the two extra rounds (Yippee!), instead this week will be my last week of chemo and we will come down to Houston in September to have the residual cancer removed surgically.

I would obviously prefer that this round of chemo take care of what ever is left, but that probably won't happen, so I need to be prepared for surgery. At this point it is much better than two more rounds of chemo-trust me. Chemo sucks!

He also changed up the chemo a bit and instead of being on 4 drugs at once I will only have 3 drugs. He dropped the Interleukin-2, which is the nasty one. This means that we will get to head home on Monday instead of Wednesday. I am very happy about that. I already miss these two munchkins:

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Houston, We Have A Problem!

The problem being, I don't wanna go! I wanna stay here and hug and kiss and play with my babies. We have really had a nice time this past week and I just don't want it to end!

However, I have no say in whether we go or not. Cancer has already made that decision for me and we leave this afternoon. However, one more round down means only two more rounds to go so I guess that is the good news, right?

Even though two extra rounds totally sucks, I am really, really excited to kick cancer's ass. Won't it be a wonderful day when I can get on here and say, guess what folks, I am cancer free! Oh, that will be a wonderful day and I am anxiously looking forward to that moment. I hope you are too!

Warning: This pictures have nothing to do with my post. I just love to be able to look at my blog when I am in Houston and see adorable pictures of my adorable children! Enjoy:)