Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Less Than 6 Months

This weekend marked 6 months.

I have been getting chemo treatments for 6 months now.

But, do you know what else that means? That means that I have less than 6 months to go. I am OVER halfway done.

It's hard to believe that I have been doing this so long. I can't really say that it has gone quickly, because quit honestly, it hasn't. It feels like forever!

Probably the most difficult thing to deal with though is the fatigue. I am just so darn tired. The hardest part of my day is actually getting out of bed. Some days getting up and moving is just so hard.

But, you do what you have to do, right?

I have two beautiful babies that depend on me, so even when the only thing I want to do is sleep the day away, I get up and try my best to be a good mommy.

I am grateful that my babies are so young. I pray that they won't remember how tired I always am.

I pray that they remember that I played with them, cooked with them, colored with them, and loved them more than anything in this whole wide world.

Monday, February 2, 2009

A Good Day

I don't know how many of you read the link on the side about how my cancer treatments are going (and if you read it religiously, I apologize for only updating every 1 or 2 weeks!) but last week I had to skip my shot on Saturday because we were heading to Wisconsin.

I really didn't want to skip it because now my last day of treatment will be August 8th instead of August 6th.

But, I was excited to see how I would feel on Monday. And I gotta say, I feel pretty good.

I'm tired, but this is a different kind of tired. It's a "Kyler woke me up at 6 AM" kind of tired. It's actually a nice kind of tired. Not that "I am so utterly tired I can barely function" kind of tired.

On the down side though, I actually have a bit of an appetite. The Interferon apparently takes away some of my desire to eat. No wonder I have lost 20 lbs! However, I would totally gain the weight back in a heartbeat, if it meant I could have the energy to play with my babies and just get stuff done!

If I could get away with it, I would probably skip tomorrow's shot too. It would be awesome to feel this good two days in a row!