Today is it.
The big day.
The first day of my Immunotherapy treatment.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. I am. Very scared.
I am scared of what this treatment is going to do to me.
How will my body react?
Will I be able to function? Will I be able to take care of my kids? Will I be able to take care of myself?
I am also sad. Sad that today is the last day that I can breastfeed my precious little princess. No, I haven't really been weaning. I don't want to stop. I enjoy nursing her. She enjoys it also. It's not fair. None of this is fair.
I'm not sure what I have cried more over. Quitting breastfeeding or beginning treatments.
Maybe I have shed tears over both evenly.
Please think of and pray for me today as I begin this stupid journey to kick cancer's ass. I know that I will win. I have no doubts about that. I am just scared to go through hell and back to beat it.
I am so lucky to have my family and friends with me as I begin this. Thank you all for that.
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